I know so many boys.......

 


I hope you hang yourself with your H&M scarf
While jacking off listening to Mozart
You bitch and moan about LA
Wishing you were in the rain reading Hemingway
You don’t eat meat
And drive electrical cars
You’re so indie rock it’s almost an art
You need SPF 45 just to stay alive

You’re so gay and you don’t even like boys
No you don’t even like
No you don’t even like
No you don’t even like boys
You’re so gay and you don’t even like boys
No you don’t even like
No you don’t even like
No you don’t even like…

You’re so sad maybe you should buy a happy meal
You’re so skinny you should really Super Size the deal
Secretly you’re so amused
That nobody understands you
I’m so mean cause I cannot get you outta your head
I’m so angry cause you’d rather MySpace instead
I can’t believe I fell in love with someone that wears more makeup than…

You’re so gay and you don’t even like boys
No you don’t even like
No you don’t even like
No you don’t even like boys
You’re so gay and you don’t even like boys
No you don’t even like
No you don’t even like
No you don’t even like…

You walk around like you’re oh so debonair
You pull ‘em down and there’s really nothing there
I wish you would just be real with me

You’re so gay and you don’t even like boys
No you don’t even like
No you don’t even like
No you don’t even like boys
You’re so gay and you don’t even like boys
No you don’t even like
No you don’t even like
Oh no no no no no no no
You’re so gay and you don’t even like boys
No you don’t even like
No you don’t even like
No you don’t even like boys
You’re so gay and you don’t even like boys
No you don’t even like
No you don’t even like
No you don’t even like… PENIS

I've got a pocket full of SUNSHINE!

This is my favorite time of year. I love sunshine and the way it feels beating down on my shoulders.

I love going out on the boat on the weekends.

I love going to Arrington Vineyards.

I love fishing and taking the dogs to the river.

It puts me in a good mood.

The Chapel to the Hill

I complain often that my husband moved me, a purebred city girl, out to the country. You would think that the small city "folk" would be rushing to my door to give me apple pie and to "shoot the shit" out on the driveway, but I got no such welcome. Instead I got the cold shoulder and ugly stares. As if they have never seen big sunglasses and high heels before. Needless to say I do NOT fit in. I stick out like a sore thumb. I don't do dirt, sweat, or awful animal smells. I love make-up, perfume, purses, and shoes. Not to mention the closest shopping center is a Dollar Mart. Enough said. I need Target, Charlotte Russe, Hobby Lobby, and Ann Taylor in my life. I hate that it takes 40 minutes to get anywhere I need to go and I refuse to shop in Lewisburg! I probably sound like a snotty brat, but I can't help it. So with all that said I have been trying REALLY hard to see the positives of  all the things in the big chapel.

I found a love for "photography". I say that loosely. I am no photographer, but lately I am seeing things through my lens that I didn't see with my eye. Chapel Hill is SO beautiful. I guess I just didn't stop and take the time to look around.

The field next to our house gets pretty tall before they decide to bush hog it. P complains about it, but I don't because its full of pretty white flowers.

There are these really big purple blooms that pop up everywhere. If anyone knows what flower this is, I would love to find out. I'm sure its a weed, but it's still pretty.

 We had an unusual amount of snow this year. It was beautiful. 

I put this bird feeder our front for all the birdies. Patrick HATES it because the seeds cause weeds to grow under it. I don't care. I like the birds. This one came on this snow day. Sorry buddy, no seeds there!

This is our backyard. We have an acre and the back of our property runs up next to this field that has horses. I'm scared of them. That black one there is a MEANIE. P likes to pet them and feed them apples. I like to watch :)

There are many railroads out in Chapel Hill. Trains still run on them daily. We don't live close enough that we can hear them. Only if its first thing in the morning when its so silent that you can hear a faint blow of a whistle.

I cross this track everyday on my way to work. I stopped this morning and took this shot. I think its breathtaking.

Right before you get to the railroad track's I pass a small farmhouse that have three donkey's. I just love them. I don't know why. I'm scared of horses, but these guys I'm not afraid of. 

The morning's it rains, they are always huddled up under a big tree just soaking wet and I just want to love on them.

I've gotten in the habit of when they are at the fence line I stop and get out. This little guy always runs up to the fence so I can pet him. Ugh it melts my heart!

READY.TO.LEAVE

I'm so anxious to get out of here today. It has been the longest day ever. I still need to go to the grocery and clean my bathroom. Maybe I'll just go to the grocery and catch up on my grey's. ;) Work sucked it hard today.

Top Two Tuesday

I decided to be a copy cat today after ready my good friend Crystal's blog. I saw this and thought, its Tuesday and why not!

Today's topic: Top two things you want to do before you die. Here it goes:

1: I want nothing more than to be a mother. My life is amazing and I love every second of it. I have a fairy tale life. I met the boy, got married and built a house. Now all that's missing is a sweet baby, and well the pickett fence but beggars cant be choosers! ;D I come from a family FULL of girls, so I have a strong feeling that we will have boys. I would be happy with either just as long as it's healthy. Patrick and I get closer everyday to trying. I am just praying for patience. I hope our baby looks just like Patrick but has my sense of humor. There is no denying that we will have one gorgeous dark hair, dark skin, dark eyed baby. I literally cannot wait for motherhood! I know my parents, sisters, and friends cannot wait either!

2: I want to find some way to repay St. Jude for everything they did for me. I probably wouldn't be here today if it wasn't for that amazing hospital. I want to use my story to help others. I would love take time off and go volunteer my services as a massage therapist to help the children and families of St. Jude. GOD gave me an amazing gift and it's my duty to share it with those in pain.

Sister Date Night

Last night I had a date with my sister Allie. We went to see the movie The Last Song. We love to go see mushy girl movies together. Our men love that we do too. That way they don't have to go see them!

I am not a crier when it comes to TV or movies. Allie on the other hand has the waterworks. I really hadn't heard much about this movie other than Miley was in it. I had seen a couple previews for it but it has been a while. I didn't realize how sad it was going to be. It's definitely a tear jerker!

The movie was pretty good, including Miley's acting. Some of the movie was cheesy, but overall I enjoyed it. There weren't any big names in the movie so I kind of expected it to be a glorified Lifetime movie. I wouldn't rush out to go see this movie in the theater or anything and I don't plan on buying the DVD but I would say it is worth renting on DVD though.

This movie kind of hit home for me. Minus the whole death thing. I had an attitude on me like her at that age. It also took me falling in love (with Patrick) to take that hard icey layer I had built up. Love really changes you. It makes you want to be a better person for your mate. I think it softens you. It's a nice feeling.

Busy!

My weekend was so busy. Here it is Monday and I feel as though I got no rest :( Oh well it was big fun.

Saturday my sister-in-law threw a bridesmaid luncheon for all us girls. It was so fun. I had never eaten at Germantown Cafe, it was delicious. I highly recommend the chicken salad sandwich. She got us all the cutest bag for being in her wedding. It also is the first thing that is monogrammed with my NEW initials on it! That was so exciting for me! We also were given our jewelry that we will wear in the wedding this coming weekend. Beautiful of course!

We had a couple hours to kill before we had to be at her shower at Arrington Vineyards so most of the girls headed to Green Hills Mall to do a little shopping. It was SO crowded though. I guess maybe since Opry Mills is flooded everyone decided to shop there. Who knows. I browsed a little but only ended up buying Patrick some nice BKE flip flops from Buckle. I did find a new perfume that I fell in love with. Jessica Simpson Fancy. OMG it smells SSSSOOOOOO good. I must have this perfume.

We headed to Arrington Vineyards around 5pm. I just love that place. I also love that it's only 20 min from my house! We had some good food and conversation. We all did a tasting, I prefer the Riesling and Raspberry dessert wine. It was a good time. I wish AV would stay open later though, 9pm just comes too fast. This property is so beautiful!!!!

Sunday was my God-Daughter Addison's 1st birthday party. She is such a doll. Every time I see her I just gobble her up. It melts my heart to see Patrick with her. He will be an amazing dad one day. Here are a few pictures from her party.

Addison loving on God-Daddy Patty


She thought it was hilarious every time she would smash her hand in her cake. It was precious!

Our Last stop was in Hopkinsville Ky to see Patrick's mom for Mother's day. She cooked lasagna for Patrick (its his favorite). We were so tired by then end of the day but glad we made the trip. We had a fabulous weekend!

I woke up thinking of you.

It's funny the things that remind me of you.
A weeping willow. It's a little ironic to me. I can remember being a child and thinking they only grew in hot springs.
Pomeranians. You hated that little dog, but none the less i think of you every time i see one.
Dominos. I can still remember the day you taught me and Allison how to play.
The smell of leaves burning in the fall.

I wish you were here. I wish you could have kept everything together. It's not fair. My daddy needs you. I often wonder how things would have been different. I hurt for our family, but mainly for my dad. He must feel so alone. You would have never let him go as long as he has without his family. I think my father would be a different person if you were still here. He would see that family is everything.

I think I've done a good job, from learning from my parents mistakes. You would be proud of me. But lately I've seen how their decisions have formed me into something I don't like. I am strong. I had to be, but doing so built up so many walls. For so long I have had to hold them up. Keep everything together, but for what? It seems for nothing. Why is this so important to me but not for others? How can they not see what is their blood? How can anything else be more important. I feel so hurt. Betrayed. All the effort I've put into this since I was 9 years old, being that rock for everyone, was all for nothing. I was forced to grow up way too fast. I've been okay with this up until now. How can he tell me one thing and do another. Actions speak louder than words. How can they ask me to grow up so fast and give up everything and be so selfish? I wish his words had truth behind them. Don't tell me what I want to hear. Tell me how it is. I want to believe the things he says, but I don't know anymore. I'm tired of being the rock and the glue that holds things together. Especially when nobody else is willing to help me. I can't make them want to be a family.

I miss you.